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I am almost over my ex but we split 8 months ago. We had a lot of history. He’s not right for me and has a lot of trauma. I am sensitive.
I am a conspiracy theorist that likes looking into things below the surface. I want the same for my partner and for him to be spiritual, believe in reincarnation. That is hard to find close to me. A lot of people are just addicted or unhealed.

No sleep at night

It’s 444am. I can’t sleep around this time for at least a second day running. I didn’t fall asleep since yesterday. This is typical. I slept in till almost 2pm. Because I didn’t set an alarm clock on purpose. It’s not shameful as I needed the sleep and I must have fallen asleep at 6am?

I am considering trying out mirtazapine again for sleep. I had it before and it made me feel like a vegetable for the month that I was taking it. A few years ago. So I’m thinking after Monday queen’s funeral, on Tuesday, I’ll fill out an online form for them (GPs) to prescribe it again. It’s easier than getting up at 8am and trying to get thru on the phone. Yes I’m feeling desperate. 

I am constantly losing my appetite. This mercury retrograde is doing a job on me.

notthing is coicedental. We create our own reality.